Not where I thought I would be but so where I need to be.

A lot has changed since I have last used this blog. I am no longer with Christian. We called off our engagement October 31 and officially broke up and stopped trying to work it out mid January. We have mutual respect for each other still but both know for the moment that its best we called it off. It was definitely hard to get use to at first even though I tried so hard to be strong about it and act like it didn't bother me. I was extremely hurt about the whole situation but who wouldn't be? The way we ended it on October 31st were definitely interesting but we wont go into that. At times I miss him but I think I miss the old him that truly loved me unconditionally. When we were good we were great. But then we became like fire and gasoline and you know those two don't mix. He is a great person and I wish the best for him. I know it was for the best and God was looking out for both of us. I guess in the end we weren't meant for each other and its better to find out now rather than later. 

I try to not let it hurt when I get calls, emails or even mail about reminders of my wedding I would have had. Even though the planning was becoming very stressful we pretty much had it planned and were getting help from family and friends. Now I'm more sad that I am the only single one of my really close friends in Arlington. They are either married or will be married by the end of this year. Its selfish but I want that too. 

BUT that's not in the cards for me this year so I'm going to have to just take this as a life lesson. 

Now my focus is to finish up my Respiratory Therapy program and to just have fun again. Living here in San Antonio that can be hard at times because people here are just so different from friends and family back home. People back home definitely cherish friendships a little more than here. 

I have been blessed to find a few fun friends from my RT program. Some of them sure are crazy and are definitely fun to hang out with and know how to cheer me up.  

I'm hoping to make lasting friendships but eventually end up back where my heart its in Arlington or maybe move to Georgia or South Carolina

I have recently decided its time to move on and start having FUN. so i will share a few of my craziness with the rest of the world. :)

Time for a fresh start and new attitude. So you just watch out!! I'm coming for ya! 

The very night we broke up. I had no clue it was coming here!

The Brand NEW me with a whole new attitude.